Week 7: 138

Blew it this weekend. Every day last week I had managed to drop a little bit of weight. Then the weekend came. There was brunch and dinner. There was lots of running around and no time to so exercise. There was laziness when it all hit me on Sunday. 

This morning I woke up feeling a bit disgusted with myself. Really when will I get it right. 

Week 6: 138 7/28/14

I should be at 134.8 only 3.2 lbs lighter such a small amount and still.

2 30 sec planks

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/fitness/lift-heavy-weights

2 sets Dead lift

2 sets of 5-6 lunges

1 set of chest lifts

2 sets of tricep extensions

Walked to work about 1 mile. It is such a beautiful breezy day. 

For breakfast oatmeal as usual. 2 hard boiled eggs with 5 grain club crackers. 

Coffee from work. Had 2 cups today.

Lunch: 2 fish tacos with salad that had some creamy dressing. Small margarita and chips and salsa.

Week 5: 137.6 7/22/14

135.3 is where I should be at. I keep slacking off and eating all the wrong things. Still not doing what I should be. 

How bad

It really is about how bad you want something, anything. I'm not grossly fat or overweight but it is a problem for me. It is a problem I want to remedy but I don't think I've wanted it badly enough. 

Running into a colleague who has gone up and down in weight and seeing her slim once again provided some motivation. There was even a nudge when she said, I'm just exercising and eating like I am suppose to, to explain what she has been doing to lose the weight. It really is that simple. So simply put, I haven't been doing it right. 

I'm really trying to focus on the positive and am trying not to be negative about the process or my body. It's hard. It's hard when you chafe in areas you really don't wish to and really shouldn't be. It's hard when parts of you rub together more than you would wish them to. It's hard when parts of you jiggle and you really wish that they didn't. I use the word wish because I've been wishing none of these things happened instead of wanting none of these to happen. Instead I have wanted that piece of chocolate, cookie, pastry or dessert. I've wanted the cheese. Those things I've wanted and have had.

Once I use to strongly believe everything you do gets you somewhere. If I ate and exercised well it got me toward my goals and if I didn't it simply got me further away from my goal. My thoughts need to become as simple as that. Because after all it is that simple. Also quite frankly I'm starting to want it more badly. 

Week 4 136.2

Up and down, up and down and not really sticking or getting close to the weight I would like to achieve or at least get back to. 

My biggest problem is how I eat. I cannot just take a bite of something I should not be eating. I end up eating and eating and eating. Now put cheese on anything and that really goes out to the next level. I just have to commit to eating better and I'm not sure why it's been such a struggle lately. 

10 mile training begins.

So I am signed up for the NYRR Bronx 10 mile run in September and the Philadelphia half marathon in November. Training for the Bronx 10 miler began last week and unfortunately I already missed 2 runs. I'm aiming for those to be the only 2 runs I miss. 

According to the plan I will be following I will be able to run this 10 miler at a 9:40 min/mile pace. I'm excited about that. If I can do it then with 10 miles surely I will be able to do my half in November at a faster time then I have done so far. Maybe just maybe I can at least PR getting a time less than 2:12:03. 

If I can carry a pace of 9:40 at a half marathon that may be a little over 5 minute improvement but anything less than my current time would be great. I would have hoped to accomplish a 2 hour marathon this year but I think at the rate I've been going this year so far that will have to be put on hold for 2015. I really have to keep this goal in mind throughout my training. I hope I can hold on to that goal. 

Week 3: 134.6

A little delayed since I was suppose to weigh myself yesterday, Monday but I forgot. It's heading in the right direction and that is what matters. Baby steps. 

Also if I keep this up for next week, I can officially book my massage though I really do rather get my car fixed. Hmmm. 

4th of July eve

So it's the day before Independence Day, and we all know it is all about the over indulgence. Here I am trying to lose about 10 lbs and I really have to be prepared to control and limit myself. I hate that with the passion. However, I hate the chafing and the way my clothes is starting to fit as a result of these additional 5-7 lbs. 

I was tempted to weigh myself today. I wanted to see where I am today before the craziness begins but I ran out of time and didn't get a chance to. Nonetheless I have at least 2.3 lbs that need to be gone by Monday so I really have to keep that in mind. 

I need to stay on top of what goes into my mouth, limit the alcohol, and exercise each day. That should be the case all the time and it is so much easier said than done. I guess if you really want something you have to work hard for it. 

Bounce back

So here I am trying to make up for the damage done since Thursday. I was off at a conference in Connecticut and I was able to eat well for lunch and dinner. However, breakfast and snacks were bad, oh and desserts had after dinner. It was just bad. Friday wasn't any better but slightly better. 

The worst part was getting home and not being in any kind of mood to do anything. I didn't want to cook, so healthy eating was kinda out the door. I drank some more. I also didn't want to exercise until Sunday when I kinda had no choice but to do so. 

I'm grateful I had a race on Sunday otherwise I am not sure I would have snapped out of it. I was even tempted to skip the race. But since we paid for it especially Maylee I felt bad. The race was great. No PR and I ate horribly afterwards since they gave us hotdogs, fries and soda. I think I are more calories than I ran off. 

I think this race and the fact that Maylee is giving me some competition has given me the motivation I needed to get back on track. I went from 137.8 to 135.6 back up to 138.6. Yeah that can't continue to happen. 

I am hoping that my 10 miler and half marathon training goes better than what I've done in the past year. I also hope it helps me get my metabolism, diet and weight back on track. 

I know I need to change it up so I'm hoping interval training will help and I think I will restart my Focus T-25 training. I do want to build up my core and legs so I will attempt to so weight training as much as is possible. I need to make sure I keep track of these workouts. 

Week 2: 138.6 lbs

Just one word unbelievable. 

Well I do have a lot more to day than that. Like disappointed. It really isn't unbelievable because I can easily see why and how I shot back up to this weight. Once I left to the conference I was good a whole 1 day. By the next day I was drinking and eating dessert. It didn't help that we started it off on a bad foot. Breakfast with no real protein only cream for the coffee, etc. I didn't get to exercise.

Of course that only continues into the weekend. Thank god I had a race on Sunday otherwise who knows how I would have broken out of that rut. 

Well here we go again from square 1. I'm so totally bummed. 

Meals 6/24

Oatmeal with raisins. fat free milk. Cinnamon and nutmeg. 

2 hard boiled eggs. 

Coffee with 1.5 raw sugar and fat free. 

Half a Boston creme donut in shape of star. 

Had two more bites out of that other half.

Chicken. 1 slice of whole wheat bread. Pesto and avocado and salad

Pineapple. 

Can't recall what else I ate. I think it was meat loaf. 

Meals 6/23

Oatmeal with raisins. Low fat milk. Cinnamon and nutmeg. 

2 hard boiled eggs. 

Iced 2% latte 12oz 1 raw sugar

Spicy salmon sushi ate most of inside and ginger. Spinach and avocado salad. 5-7 dark chocolate covered almonds

Cashews. 

Crave snacks: granola

Chicken with roasted cauliflower and salad. A little oj

Exercise weekend review and this weeks goals

So this weekend the most exercise I did was the 10K on Sunday which is great and some dancing at night. I did also dance a bit on Saturday at the BBQ but otherwise I need to step up my exercise.

I really want to shape up my tush and thigh area not for aesthetic reasons but mostly to prevent the rubbing. It is a plus that I will look good as a result but I really just need to improve that area. 

Goal for this week eat more veggies and make it through my conference without eating horribly. I would also like to step up my exercise but with this conference simply doing exercise wen while I'm away will be great. 

Weekend meals

Saturday:

2 slices of French toast. An egg over easy. Kielbasa. Coffee with coconut almond milk and 2-3 raw sugars. 

BBQ: 2 pieces of meat, coleslaw, rice

1 shot of tequila. 2-3 coronitas. Potato chips. 

Sunday:

Smoothie made by Maylee.

Gatorade during the race. 

Half cinnamon raisin bagel. 

2 eggs over easy, kielbasa, carrot sticks

Black beans about a cup with mozzarella and sour cream. 1.5 English muffin with butter. Orange juice.

Falafel in pita with hummus, cucumber salad, kalamata olives, feta cheese, tomato, pepperocini.

Apple cider, some potato chips. 

Week 1: 135.6 lbs 2.2 down

So instead of just .5 lb I went down 2.2 lbs. That is great. I didn't think I was going to go down that much cause over the weekend it wasn't so pretty but I'm glad to be down that much. I skipped ahead a few weeks worth of goals but I really want to see the weight drop from here. 

Meals 6/20

Oatmeal with raisins. Low fat milk. Cinnamon and nutmeg. Chia seeds. 

2 hard boiled eggs. 4 crackers

Coffee with fat free milk and 1.5 sugars (I think I had coffee)

Spinach salad with oranges, strawberries, avocado, chicken, tomato, and balsamic vinegrette on the side. Coconut water with pineapple all fresh. 

Some cashews. 

I'm finishing this entry on Monday so I may not recall everything I are Friday night. 

I had a drink with my honey. The coconut pineapple water with cranberry juice and mojito rum. 

Pork chop, roasted carrot sticks and salad. 

Disappointed

So yesterday I felt good for the most part until the end. I was going home and my honey had been home so I knew dinner would be prepared. She is usually good about it. 

Not the not so good part is that I'm going home with my foot hurting once more after wearing heels. My thighs are rubbing together more than I would like them too. I go pick up our race bib feeling so unsure about how this race is going to go because quite frankly I'm so not ready for it. So not feeling good so far. 

I get home and I enjoy the sunset with my honey. However, I'm not in the mood to exercise and I'm not so excited about food other than the kale chips I really enjoy. It gets really late and we decide to order food. Chinese which I do enjoy but I didn't enjoy because I think I felt guilty. I felt like I failed myself. Well the day is over and it was yesterday at this point so I'm going to let it go and try to do my best today. 

Here is the sunset I enjoyed. 

Meals 6/19

Ice latte 12 oz 1% milk 1 sugar

Hard boiled eggs 1 yolk and 4 crackers. I've forgotten to report my crackers in the past entries. Tsk tsk. 

Small pastry at meeting. 

Oatmeal with raisins. Low fat milk. Cinnamon and nutmeg. Chia seeds. 

Not drinking enough water. 

Chicken and brussel sprouts

Fruit cup. 

Fage yogurt with strawberry

Picked on lots of cereal and ate kale chips. 

Ordered BBQ ribs. I had 1, had 2-3 crab rangoons and had some fried rice and sesame chicken. Half egg roll. 

Another day

Wow I had a hard time but I'm happy to say I was able to do a 5 mile run in the warm weather. I really didn't think I was going to be able to make it. However, I did! I kept to an average of a 10:30 min pace and had to walk a few times but I was able to finish very strong. Unfortunately my watch didn't record my run. I was all over the place and kept forgetting to start it when I stopped it

I hate to say it but I do believe I am over the running alone bit. I have done great when I run with someone compared to when I am alone. This can be a problem because I can't always run with someone. 

I'm glad I did it since I really didn't work out the day before. All I did was an arm workout. It's good I did but still not what I would like to accomplish for everyday. I'm not so sure what I will do today maybe an interval run on the treadmill and some legs. 

For next week my goal will be to see out a routine for the week with alternatives just incase I'm not feeling so up to certain workouts. 

Meals 6/18

Oatmeal with raisins. Low fat milk. Cinnamon and nutmeg. Chia seeds. 

2 hard boiled eggs. 

Coffee with fat free milk and 1.5 sugars

Cashews.

Banana

Beef stew, onion and peppers. Asparagus. Baby kale and tomato with dressing. Parmeggiano regiano, olive oil, lemon. 

Fruit cup. 

3 mini Reese's PB cup. 

Chicken and brussel sprouts. A bit if cranberry apple juice. 

Incentives

When I get below:

- 135 for 2 weeks I will give myself a massage;

- 131 lbs for 2 weeks I will purchase a Thomas Sabo charm for my bracelet;

- 128 lbs for 2 weeks I will purchase gold or silver earrings. 

Meals 6/17

Smoothie. PB and cocoa. Almond coconut milk. Banana

2 hard boiled eggs only one yolk. 

Oatmeal with raisins. Low fat milk. Cinnamon and nutmeg. Chia seeds. 

Cashews.

Cucumber salad with red onions, tomato, olive oil and balsamic vinegar. 

Salmon with broccoli and green beans. 

Fruit cup. 

Ice latte 12 oz with 2% milk and 1 raw sugar

More cashews. 

As I go home I feel very bloated. 

Beef stew with onions and green peppers. Asparagus. Baby kale salad with tomato. Dressing: lemon, parmeggiano regiano, olive oil, salt and pepper. 

Frozen grapes. 

Baby stepping

I ate better and even exercised. Didn't want to but I did. I limited my portions and kept away from the unnecessary stuff. I'm hoping I can keep to 20 weeks of this. Baby stepping my way back to a healthier weight. 

Meals 6/16

Steel cut oats with raisins cinnamon and nutmeg with chia seeds and fat free milk

2 hard boil eggs, egg white and one egg yolk. 4 crackers. Coffee with 1.5 raw sugar.

Banana med and one small piece of dark chocolate. 

Salad with dressing on the side.

Balsamic vinaigrette. Baby spinach. Strawberry. Tomato. Plain chicken. Roasted peppers. Orange slices. Avocado. 

Handful of grapes. Cashews.

A few sips of oj

Salmon. Cucumber, red onion, tomato with fig balsamic and olive oil. Feta cheese. Broccoli and green beans.  

Ouch! how did I get back here?

So this morning I weighed in at a good ole high of 137.8 lbs.

I know I shouldn't get caught up on the number but I will because I haven't weighed this much in a while and I was hoping to keep it that way. Actually I was hoping to see myself lose weight and maybe aim to dip lower than the 130s but yikes that is not the direction I am going in.

How did I get here? It is quite a blur but honestly the lack of consistent exercise, my eating habits and the cheese, sweets and alcohol I've been ingesting sure do all play a part.

Changes must be made. I can deal without the alcohol. I can tackle the cheese and sweets part little by little. I also just need to get my ass into gear and exercise everyday. I've been stressing about my runs but I think I may need to stop stressing and just start moving, whatever that may be.

I want to take this weight loss seriously at this point and I can manage to try to lose .5 lb every week. So If I get myself together and stick to it for 20 weeks I can lose 10 lbs. Maybe I can lose it faster but I rather aim for slower.

Starting weight  137.8
week  1:  6/23  137.3
week  2:  6/30  136.8
week  3:  7/7    136.3
week  4:  7/14  135.8

week  5:  7/21  135.3
week  6:  7/28  134.8
week  7:  8/4    134.3
week  8:  8/11  133.8

week  9:  8/18  133.3
week 10: 8/25  132.8
week 11: 9/1    132.3
week 12: 9/8    131.8

week 13: 9/15  131.3
week 14: 9/22  130.8
week 15: 9/29  130.3
week 16: 10/6  129.8

week 17: 10/13 129.3
week 18: 10/20 128.8
week 19: 10/27 128.3
week 20: 11/3   127.8

I will plan my meals at least breakfast, lunch and snack. I will aim to get 2 veggies in during dinner time and try to keep lunch as a well balanced meal of protein, vegetables, fruits and carbs. I will limit my alcohol and sweet intake. I will exercise from 30-60 minutes a day. I will drink as much water as possible.

I little research says to maintain I need to ingest 1755 calories a day. If I want to lose .5 a week I need to burn 1750 more calories more than consumed, 250 calories per day. So if I consume 1505 calories a day or just burn 250 calories a day I should lose weight.

15 minutes in the morning of brisk walking about 91 calories
30 minutes of walking Bear about 100 calories
30 minutes of jogging about 300 calories
5 minutes of jumping rope about 52 calories
30 minutes of weight lifting about 200 calories
30 minutes of yoga about 160 calories