Week 6: 138 7/28/14

I should be at 134.8 only 3.2 lbs lighter such a small amount and still.

2 30 sec planks

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/fitness/lift-heavy-weights

2 sets Dead lift

2 sets of 5-6 lunges

1 set of chest lifts

2 sets of tricep extensions

Walked to work about 1 mile. It is such a beautiful breezy day. 

For breakfast oatmeal as usual. 2 hard boiled eggs with 5 grain club crackers. 

Coffee from work. Had 2 cups today.

Lunch: 2 fish tacos with salad that had some creamy dressing. Small margarita and chips and salsa.

Week 5: 137.6 7/22/14

135.3 is where I should be at. I keep slacking off and eating all the wrong things. Still not doing what I should be. 

How bad

It really is about how bad you want something, anything. I'm not grossly fat or overweight but it is a problem for me. It is a problem I want to remedy but I don't think I've wanted it badly enough. 

Running into a colleague who has gone up and down in weight and seeing her slim once again provided some motivation. There was even a nudge when she said, I'm just exercising and eating like I am suppose to, to explain what she has been doing to lose the weight. It really is that simple. So simply put, I haven't been doing it right. 

I'm really trying to focus on the positive and am trying not to be negative about the process or my body. It's hard. It's hard when you chafe in areas you really don't wish to and really shouldn't be. It's hard when parts of you rub together more than you would wish them to. It's hard when parts of you jiggle and you really wish that they didn't. I use the word wish because I've been wishing none of these things happened instead of wanting none of these to happen. Instead I have wanted that piece of chocolate, cookie, pastry or dessert. I've wanted the cheese. Those things I've wanted and have had.

Once I use to strongly believe everything you do gets you somewhere. If I ate and exercised well it got me toward my goals and if I didn't it simply got me further away from my goal. My thoughts need to become as simple as that. Because after all it is that simple. Also quite frankly I'm starting to want it more badly. 

Week 4 136.2

Up and down, up and down and not really sticking or getting close to the weight I would like to achieve or at least get back to. 

My biggest problem is how I eat. I cannot just take a bite of something I should not be eating. I end up eating and eating and eating. Now put cheese on anything and that really goes out to the next level. I just have to commit to eating better and I'm not sure why it's been such a struggle lately. 

10 mile training begins.

So I am signed up for the NYRR Bronx 10 mile run in September and the Philadelphia half marathon in November. Training for the Bronx 10 miler began last week and unfortunately I already missed 2 runs. I'm aiming for those to be the only 2 runs I miss. 

According to the plan I will be following I will be able to run this 10 miler at a 9:40 min/mile pace. I'm excited about that. If I can do it then with 10 miles surely I will be able to do my half in November at a faster time then I have done so far. Maybe just maybe I can at least PR getting a time less than 2:12:03. 

If I can carry a pace of 9:40 at a half marathon that may be a little over 5 minute improvement but anything less than my current time would be great. I would have hoped to accomplish a 2 hour marathon this year but I think at the rate I've been going this year so far that will have to be put on hold for 2015. I really have to keep this goal in mind throughout my training. I hope I can hold on to that goal. 

Week 3: 134.6

A little delayed since I was suppose to weigh myself yesterday, Monday but I forgot. It's heading in the right direction and that is what matters. Baby steps. 

Also if I keep this up for next week, I can officially book my massage though I really do rather get my car fixed. Hmmm. 

4th of July eve

So it's the day before Independence Day, and we all know it is all about the over indulgence. Here I am trying to lose about 10 lbs and I really have to be prepared to control and limit myself. I hate that with the passion. However, I hate the chafing and the way my clothes is starting to fit as a result of these additional 5-7 lbs. 

I was tempted to weigh myself today. I wanted to see where I am today before the craziness begins but I ran out of time and didn't get a chance to. Nonetheless I have at least 2.3 lbs that need to be gone by Monday so I really have to keep that in mind. 

I need to stay on top of what goes into my mouth, limit the alcohol, and exercise each day. That should be the case all the time and it is so much easier said than done. I guess if you really want something you have to work hard for it. 

Bounce back

So here I am trying to make up for the damage done since Thursday. I was off at a conference in Connecticut and I was able to eat well for lunch and dinner. However, breakfast and snacks were bad, oh and desserts had after dinner. It was just bad. Friday wasn't any better but slightly better. 

The worst part was getting home and not being in any kind of mood to do anything. I didn't want to cook, so healthy eating was kinda out the door. I drank some more. I also didn't want to exercise until Sunday when I kinda had no choice but to do so. 

I'm grateful I had a race on Sunday otherwise I am not sure I would have snapped out of it. I was even tempted to skip the race. But since we paid for it especially Maylee I felt bad. The race was great. No PR and I ate horribly afterwards since they gave us hotdogs, fries and soda. I think I are more calories than I ran off. 

I think this race and the fact that Maylee is giving me some competition has given me the motivation I needed to get back on track. I went from 137.8 to 135.6 back up to 138.6. Yeah that can't continue to happen. 

I am hoping that my 10 miler and half marathon training goes better than what I've done in the past year. I also hope it helps me get my metabolism, diet and weight back on track. 

I know I need to change it up so I'm hoping interval training will help and I think I will restart my Focus T-25 training. I do want to build up my core and legs so I will attempt to so weight training as much as is possible. I need to make sure I keep track of these workouts.